yo cuzy! it's ur birthday

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CUZY!!!

HERE'S WISHING U A GREAT DAY AND A GREAT

YEAR AHEAD CUZ! =)

GOD BLESS U AND ALL THE BEST FOR UR INTERVIEW!

CANT WAIT TO HEAR UR GD NEWS!

TAKE CARE AND ENJOY UR DAY YA ;)

21st LIAO.. IT'S A SPEEDY PROCESS FRM HERE ON.. SO BEWARE!!!

HAHA! =P

REMEMBER TO MAINTAIN THE YOUTHFUL LOOK YA?

TOO MUCH SUN IS GONNA RUIN UR SKIN..

SO BE CAREFUL! ;)

*HUGZZ & KISSES*

MISSING YA LOADS...

LOVE YA LOVE YA LOVE YA!

marketing concepts

currently studying the concepts of marketing and reading to understand the functions and scope of marketing.
wad is mktg research? and
why do pple conduct mktg research?

amidst studying, besides self-motivation, i've found myself an external motivational source.
well sometimes it can get pretty taxing trying to push myself all the time.
but when u hav someone asking u things like:
"why u always skip class?" or "why u got so little classes?"
or "how come ure not in sch?" or "no class today ah?"
...........................................................................................................................
no class lor.. the time table is as such. wad cud i possibly do abt it rite? :P

well yup so its back to my book and notes cos some pple dun tink i'll concentrate.
he said: "u study half an hr and slack for an hr."
shit! dats wad my old man always say to me!!
which is true. i am not concentrating rite now. =P
but i shall conquer at least 3 chapters today! haa!

agenda for today 080306:
1. return GY Dunlop text (DONE)
2. Study MR (currently in progress)
3. Find ER article (later)
4. visit aunt in Mount E (later, evening)
5. Add new ringtones on my hp (tonite)
6. type OTD notes frm last meeting (tonite)

oh how i cant wait for the weekend esp fri!!! ;)

articles, journals, news

whats the big diff between journal articles, newspaper articles and reviews?
arent they all the same shit?
*BIG SIGH*

am currently TRYING to search for journal articles for my ER grp assignment.
geeeeee.

i got a MR test in 2 weeks, need to study NOW. but i'm like here blogging n bitching abt my sch life.
gosh.
humans are really difficult to please huh?
i'm a walking contradiction.
shaiks.

ok back to work.

ms grumps

oh gee.
i tink i've been too grumpy of late.
perhaps its the weather.
pehaps its the pple.
perhaps its jus me.

*shrugs*

sorry all.

this song reminds me of my dearest cuzy

Better Together by Jack Johnson

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepia tone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

[Chorus:]
MMM its always better when we're together
Look at the stars when we're together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together

And all of these moments
Just might find there way into my dreams tonight
But I know that theyll be gone
When the morning light sings
And brings new things
But tomorrow night you see
That theyll be gone too
Too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find there way
Into my day to day scene
Ill be under the impression
I was somewhere in between
With only two
Just me and you
Not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be
We'll Sit beneath the mango tree

Its always better when we're together
We're somewhere in between together
Its always better when we're together
Yeah, its always better when we're together

MMmmmm MMMmmmm Mmmmmm
I believe in memories
They look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
You look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
And there is no song I could sing
And there is no, combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together

I MISS U CUZY! =) *huggies*
listening to this song now, early in the morning, while doing my project puts a smile on my face. it makes me miss playing the tune on the piano wif grace.
ure always in my thots cuz! love ya a whole bunch! hee.

sending grace off

asian aerospace 260206

the main field



























some apache
























the interior of the A380 (small model of it)



























the F14, 15 and 16 frm U.S.A



















chk out their names on the plane! how cool is dat! personalised i say! =P



















the front of one of the fighter planes



























another cool fighter plane
























lonelier planes..

























the queue to see the A380


























we're getting there.......
























































there we go! the A380! sadly we din get to go up. wasted!
bigggggg ass plane man!

























this is COOL

all in all the experience of goin to this exhibition was great. learnt alot frm reading and listening. cool planes.

pile on the booksssssss

i've been buried under notes and reference texts all day today.
want very badly to finish my mere 1500 words essay by the end of today!
i jus cant wait for dat. but neither do i want to be doing a lousy job at the end.
tough huh.
oh well. dats me.
hopefully i didnt write off tangent.
pretty worried abt dat.
brain cells feel quite fried alr.
jus had my dinner so feeling very lazy. =X
so decided to come here to rant before continuing on with the essay.
poor thing alex stress until sick. fanis is stoned.
THANK GOD i'm still normal! =)
altho my sis wont stop complaining abt me being such a grump.
hmm.. really meh?
well perhaps the smallest irritaing pple n things will get to me la.
haa! so ya BEWARE!!!
i'm my sister's sister. that means i can breathe fire too! *chuckles* hurhur

okok enough of my nonsense.
hopefully i'll get this essay done ASAP
so i can relax and jus study for my test over the weekend.
i need to catch up on Marketing Research.
read my case study for the report, and study 10 chapters for a silly MCQ test which happens to make up 20% of the final grade!!! yup. march is a tough mth ahead. lots of work to be done. lots to be studied and soaked into my tiny BUT powerful brain. hahaha.
kk all the best to those studying and working hard.
to those who are merely serving their time in NS or those who are waiting to start sch.
GOOD LUCK! enjoy ur freedom while it lasts cos when sch starts, haha it'll be HELL til u graduate!
geee.. whoever said uni life was fun and exciting? not me dats for sure.

this song reminds me of a certain someone

Somebody by Depeche Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She will hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and with every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear
Of those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

the wedding

grace's 21st

thurs nite out at kallang

in an attempt to surprise grace with a little outing to kallang river...
my all time favourite place to hang out at nite!
we had beckie, qin, keong and cp along too!
cud hear oasis concert going on at the background! haha =P

and it's been a while....

gosh. i jus realised it has been quite a while since my last update.
god knows wad have i been busy with.
sorry for any inconvenience.

not much of a major events of late cept for a few of em' such as:

- 230206: chilling out and doing silly stuff wif grace, qin, beckie, keong and cp by kallang river

- 240206: did nails at parkway with sis, claudia, claudia's mum & dong yan den headed to orchard to meet grace, qin and cp for some shopping and catch up

- 250206: had to be a bridesmaid at a wedding in the morn then headed to grace's hse in the evening before sending her off at the airport. yup, grace has returned to brisbane..

- 260206: went to chk out the Asian Aerospace 2006 at changi with sis, dennis, nic and danielle (my god-sis) was not bad. got to see the A380. sadly din get to go inside tho. but the planes were really cool! even got to hav a chat with one of the majors of our S'pore Air Force. cool dude. all these pilots dressed in their uniforms and those oakley sunglasses. my oh my. to tink abt it.. perhaps ray-ban wud hav been a more pilot sun glasses. but ya. the main hightlight, the planes. gd stuff dere. took lots of pics. will upload dem soon.

the week ahead's gonna take some getting used to now that grace has returned. aint got no more partner in crime. =X
gonna be missing my cuzy a whole lot. 10mths without her. wonder how dat's gonna be like. 4mths was pretty quick the last time round. this is more den twice the previous. *shrugs
oh well... we shall see.

cuzy, we'll still be communicating ya?
if we dun get to catch each other online, pls do internet sms me anytime! it's always great to hear frm u cuz.
thanks for a great time with u while u were back in s'pore. had loads of fun as always! :)
sorry once agn for all my nonsense and thanks for putting up with it.
pls take good care of urself (which i believe u will) and know that i is will be missing u alot.
God bless u cuzy.
dun stress over there k? if u need someone to talk to remember there's me! ;) *hugz*
cuzy, ni zi dao ni shi zui hao de! ;P hehe!

yup. tough times lie ahead. i can feel it.
with all the project submissions and exams.
dere's loads to be done.
jus hope i'll be ok after all this.

food for thought

this is for the lovers, dreamers, romantic pple and the list goes on..

1st thing,
what is love?
who actually knows what love is?
and how it feels like to be in love?
why does anyone need love?
do we find love or does love find us?
who is the right person? what makes u so sure he/she is the one?

1 thing i've come to realise over time:
sex is cheap; and love is non-existent.

does this statement sound wrong to u?
but seriously, before u tink any less of me or my thots, do spend some time to tink abt wad i jus said.
if this statement is untrue, den why do pple get hurt?

dere's no such thing as "it wasnt on purpose" or "i din mean for it to happen". cos truth is, it did happen.
yup sometimes pple dun really mean to hurt one another.
but for selfish reasons, choices have to be made.
obviously at the expense of others.

love isnt always fun, laughter, peace and joy
it's abt being able to see each other thru ups and downs.
its abt being comfortable but not to the extent of taking one another for granted.
it's abt sharing, kindness, patience, tolerance, perseverance, forgiveness, care, and all these things.
but sometimes i guess pple lose focus. their minds and hearts go all over the place.
they just lose touch. lose feelings, lose emotions, lose everything.
but 1 thing remains, memories.

why do some pple put in so much effort but end up getting hurt so badly?
time and time again.
is he/she really so worth it? how do u noe he/she is really worth it? wad makes u so sure u cant find anyone better?
wad makes u tink u cant find another love of ur life?
if u dun try, u'll nvr know.

dun be too quick to presume dat u'll nvr find happiness again.
nvr tink negatively.
always tell urself ure stronger den u tink and dat u can achieve far greater things if only u put ur heart, mind and soul into it.
nothing is impossible when u hav God with u.
seek solace in Him. he'll deliver u out of darkness.
trust me, i know.

God will nvr fail u.
it is u who must believe.
faith will guide u and help u out.
nvr wallow in self-pity cos dat is only for the weak.
it's all in the mind.
u have to tell urself u can do it.
put ur mind to it and push urself.
it aint gonna be ez.
but at the end of it all, when u made it thru,
u'll be proud. u'll be glad u did it.

pain and suffering is temporary, glory lasts a lifetime.

of cos things jus wont be the same without the special him/her
but life still goes on.
face it, the truth always hurts.
but its wad and how u deal with it dat makes u a stronger person.
things dont always go ur way.
u may not always like the way things happen,
but wad the heck, its not the end of the world.

last nite whilst driving home, i was listening to the radio,
suddenly an ad came on abt pregnancy hotline for teen girls,
those who r troubled, duno whether or not to keep the child, duno how to tell their parents etc etc.
thots & emotions triggered.
is it really that bad for these girls? and in wad ways?
hmm...


anyhow, go dwl and listen to this song by R.E.M.
truly meaningful. the lyrics are below:

When your day is long
and the night,
the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life,
well hang on.
Don't let yourself go,
'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts
sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong.
Now it's time to sing along--
When your day is night alone,
hold on
if you feel like letting go,
if you think you've had too much of this life,
well hang on.

‘cause everybody hurts.
Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts.

Don't throw your hand.
Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no,
you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life,
the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts--
sometimes--
everybody cries.
everybody hurts,
sometimes.
everybody hurts,
sometimes.
So, hold on,
hold on.

so girls and guys, pls protect urself, protect ur heart, but dun bcome overly cautious dat u start pushing pple away. den dats wrong.
take things slowly, let ur heart mend.
u have to know when ure ready to love again.
everyone can do better den dis.
dun feel sad. sadness is but a feeling. it cud always be changed to joy only if u want to.
cry, let ur emotions fly all over the place.
u deserve to feel how ure feeling but move on.
dun stay stagnant.
things are easier said den done, i know.
but as long as u persevere, u can do it.
heal that broken heart and move on.
easy come, easy go.
develop that mentality den nthg will go wrong for u.
u are responsible for ur own feelings, so
if u dun take care of urself, no one can.

frens and family can gif u a thousand and one advice,
but ultimately,
the tough work depends on u and u alone.
it's stressful and very tiring.
emotionally and mentally draining.
but like i said, with God all things are possible.
hang in there and be strong.
smile and the rest of the world will smile along with u =)

Pre-Celebration for Grace

headed over to grandaunt's place yesterday afternoon along with grace, qin, denise, javern, cp & herbert to help decorate and set up the place in preparation for the big party to come later that evening.
the trurnout was overwhelming. as all of u wud noe, grace is popular.. tonnes of frens came.
wow.
great to see everyone loves grace :)
we all had fun i'm sure.
poor her had to run ard, everyone was like "grace ur frens r here" or "grace come over here" or "grace ur hp is ringing" etc etc..
haa. bz bz bz like a bumble bee.
i was dead beat.
still havent had the chance to recover frm the rush of my submission which was on fri.
exhaustion is overwhelming.
by 8.30pm i had already began to stone.
8.30pm felt like it was 10.30pm. 10.30pm felt like it was 1.30am.
dats how crappy i felt. heh. so loserish man. =X

left the party site abt 11+pm to 12am to head to zouk.
beckie rode with keong. cp, jav, bert & eugene shared a cab whilst the girls, peiwen, dan, grace, jacq and qin followed me in my car.


zouk & phuture was UTTERLY BORING. the music sucked.
but i suppose we made the most out of the grim situation.
so it turned out ok. :)
besides the company was great!
my 1st time since duno how many donkey yrs dat i went clubbing with danielle man!
my gdness.. 10yrs of frenship. FINALLY! haha.
i had fun la i must say.


but the damn fatigue really got to me.
found myself drifting off to my own little wonderland whilst the rest were enjoying themselves playing games.
felt like such a wet blacket.
but i'm glad i din drink any more den i did.
fatigue + alcohol = DANGER!!!

i suppose danielle is right. i am really very tired.
nearly got into an accident along my way home. along the ECP just ard bebok camp.
it was one hell of an experience.
i freaked out. major freaked out.
currently still feeling pretty much shocked.
imagine travelling at 100km/h, falling aslp and "waking up" finding ur car facing the railing and going straight into it.
omg. the amazing part is. i dun even noe how i "woke up" in time to swerve my car away frm the pole. it was fucking scary.
Thank God nthg happened to my car. i duno wad i'd do if anything happened.
my car was shaking when i swerved it away so i immediately stepped on my break to decrease speed.
i nvr felt more awake at that point in time.
really Thank God i woke up in time.
i din even realise i fell aslp that the best part.
i dun remember when i fell aslp.

looking back, it is really freaky.
but on a positive note, at least all is fine.
cept that i tink dat will become a stigma to me alr.
well we learn everyday dun we?

Valentine's Day

had fun with beloved pple on this day.
friends are those who are not quick to judge, ready to love and give their best.
thanks guys and sorry for my mistakes.


LOVE YA'LL!!

questions questions questions

everybody asks questions.
are all questions asked out of curiousity?
perhaps so.

why do pple ask questions?
to get an answer?
to feed their hungry brains?

must all questions have an answer?
perhaps.

thoughts can be tiring, but how do they come about in the 1st place?
why tink of dem to begin with rite?

wad benefits does one get out of asking questions?
personal satisfaction perhaps?
according to Maslow's hierarchy of needs, perhaps it fulfills the self-actualisation aspect to a certain extent.

*shrugs*
wad's wif all the questions?
i dun like to answer questions.
esp those that i dun feel like answering.

current tune!

currently listening to "No Such Thing" by John Mayor (which is on repeat btw)
*chuckles*
great song! great beats! ;)
absolutely lovin it!

makes me miss listenin to EIC!! gosh.. havent been to wala in a long time..
suddenly i got reminded of last march!
rebecca, denise, qin, grace and me headed over to wala to celebrate Grace's bday!
SHIOK!!

i gotta do dis agn soon!!!
Wala Wala anyone?? ;)

arun's farewell...

quite a productive day!
had BK breakfast wif my sis in e morn (we dun do dis very often u c)
met Fanis in TP lib at 12pm to continue on our OTD report. we're far frm done!!!
dere's jus so much to do! but today has been relatively productive... luckily.
i'm so tired rite now altho i wish i cud continue where i left off earlier dis afternoon...
tmr is round 2 of workin on projects. tmr is ER.
thurs will continue wif OTD. dateline: next fri. SIAN........

jus got home from a mini gathering .. Arun's farewell..
tis quite sad man.. i noe i'm gonna miss him ALOT.
he's been such a buddy. the 1st true guy fren i met in TP.
he's been such a darling. partner in crime, taught me how to drink, see me get drunk, see me cry, hear my sob stories, hear me whine, take my shit for projects, complain together abt other shitty proj grp members, skip lectures, sit together EVERYTIME for all lectures..
gosh. i am gonna miss him.

he's off dis fri nite.
and next, grace will be off too.
dis is saddening aint it? *shrugs*
well Lyd, live with it!

good night all.

a blast of a time!

Chinese New Year this year has been a blast so far! =)
had a grt time wif family and frens! love u all!! *hugzz*
hope everyone reap a good collection this year eh? ;)

hope everyone had as much fun as i did!

EVE
had reunion dinner at my paternal grandma's hse - wad a feast i had!
after which we snacked on kueh lapis which my grandma made before headin over to Conrad hotel wif my cousin for drinks and catch up session. this is a yearly affair.
missing my aunt who's still in U.S. aint gonna come back til march perhaps.

1st DAY
went to both side grandma's hse, grandaunt's hse and Marriott (Orchard) for visiting.
tiring but very fulfilling! :)

2nd DAY
went to uncle daniel's hse in the morn to visit and had brunch before buying ice & coke den heading home.
had family and frens over on the 2nd day of new yr.
played ard, ate ALOT and talked ALOT too! haha
exhausted i must say. but fun!
dad ordered longtong (however u spell dat) frm his colleague, grandma made my favourite peranakan dish - ayam buah keluak. feasted on those and the usual festive goodies.
i need to start shedding pounds! feeling superbly unattractive rite now.
and best part is, i have a cousin who nvr fails to make me feel so sucky abt myself. and he's none other den JOHN LIN. ass.
some of the pple i had over were Ivan, Jon, Terisa, Arun, Grace, CP, Javvy, Bert, Nic, Sedrick (hope i got the spelling right).
after helping ard and cleaning up, i gave arun a lift home before headin over to Nic's place wif of cos Nic and Sedrick to bai nian to Nic's parents.. den together headed over to Nic's grandma's place for dinner. great meal, great company.
Nic's parents are really funny. haa. had a gd time but unfortunately i was way too tired to fully enjoy..

now that the main festivities are over, i need to work full on frm now.
so much work and revision awaits. been playing way tooooooooooo much for my own gd!
damn.
nvm better late den nvr.

besides all the fun and excitement,
i must seek for help in prayer for my godpa's mum - aunty helen koh.
she's currently in Assisi Home & Hospice. pls pray for her. that she may go in peace.
doctor says her time seems pretty soon.
jus went to see her today. really sad to see her this way. reminds me alot of my grandpas when they were in that position.

yup. anyhow, hope everyone will have a great year ahead and enjoy ur life! live it to the fullest and if possible, dun regret decisions. take care all.